not a kid anymore

You can't teach old dogs new tricks...or can you?

So, just let them be the way they are ....

a)and listen to whatever they have to say even though it can be condescending but try to understand the way they are and be obedient to advice. After all, I've not lived that long yet. What on earth do I know?

b) or get pissed off inside and not say a word or say one word

c) or just get super pissed off and argue

d) reason to them in a mature manner that all roads lead to Rome.

e) or whatever else...

One thing i know, the more i avoid and rebel, I'm probably going to regret it later on. It amazes me how easily I fall into my old rebellious self after all my seemingly "saintly" intentions. It's just comforting to know that so many of us face this too.

Happy Birthday, mummy!

My mummy is half a century old today.

I don't think she'll appreciate me writing this so publicly hahaha...but i have nothing to say at this moment to spice up your reading pleasure (to whoever is reading this). Also, she doesn't know I have a blog yet.

We are going to take her to watch "Memoirs of Geisha" when she is free. And maybe feed her with chocolate...she is too thin! and she says i have lost weight.

Did I tell you I can't believe we don't have a 20 ringgit note??

Back in Malaysia

.....what is it with all these new fly-overs and roads careening through the air?? I can't even recognise my own town anymore! Ching Hwa told me to stop acting like a tourist hahaha.....but I can't help it. We don't even have free calls and smses here =( I didn't really use a mobile phone until 2 years ago, u see, so i'm really an mobile phone idiot. And I have so much junk here, it was nice to go through all my drawers and cupboard and see what i had left behind. Memories of yesteryears.

Oh and you know, I was so impressed with my flight home....there were a number of empty seats. Amazing! I might take an overnight flight from Sydney to Malaysia from now on. But not the other way round coz of all those people coming from Europe. I couldn't believe it after the impressions I got from the travel agent and the person behind the check-in counter. And the in-flight entertainment...wow!! you know, we can watch the movies and tv shows, listen to music and play games anytime we want! and we can even pause, rewind and fast forward!! and the choices of movies and music were just incredible compared to 2 years ago (an according to what i heard, last year as well). So cooool, rite?!? i was up most of the night just glued to the screen in front of me.

And since I've been back, besides acting like a tourist, went up the same day to Genting Highlands with 9 of my Malaysian church friends from Sydney so I haven't yet slept in my own bed. It was a good time being around them....we did a couple of Bible studies together on Philippians, went to the theme park and went on the bumper cars like 6 times i think or possibly more. It was good to catch up with those people who had been back home for 6 months or more and listening to them share about what's been happening in their life. I got to know one of the girls better, Nora as we were in the same room. She's the oldest and married and will be going to join her husband in Taiwan. It was great to hear about her life....when I was in Sydney, I usually talked to her mostly about her casual job at American Express. Isn't it amazing how we pass by so many people or sometimes have nothing to say to some people, but when we actually probe deeper, there is a story to their lives which we never knew and we find out what and how they think?

Anyway, it's great to be back even though I felt myself caving in to some frustration from being at home. It's starting to remind me about how things were before I left home, things that had partially escaped my mind. I hope ..and pray for..patience, self-discipline, godly priorities and genuine care. For now.

I'm a little tired from things..not very.. but i'm sorry if I haven't made many phone calls. They're coming! promise! :)

it is necessary to part to meet again

This quote suddenly popped out of Ching Hwa's mouth....probably from some movie. True...even if the parting is for the night, or for 4 years.

Parting can be sad. Sometimes when we're doing the same mundane things, we can't wait to get out of it and leave. But when the time comes to leave, and when we have to leave people or memories behind, it can be sad and we wish we didn't have to say goodbye. But that's why we'll see each other again, hopefully. We're so casual when we say "see ya", do we really mean it? Maybe I should just say bye.

Hey...You know, i think that line could have popped out of someone who wanted to part from someone and came up with that line just so that goodbyes could be said and he/she could be on their way! A good riddance tactic that was full of tact and sensitivity! hhaha...don't ya think?

I don't feel like leaving Sydney anymore. I haven't even started packing. And I haven't done so many things. And I can't believe I'm not going to see my street in 3 days.

Happy New Year!!

Another full rotation around the sun, another new turn to life! Happy 2006, everyone!!

Yesterday, Aunty Kim took me and my brothers to watch The Chronicles of Narnia. It was our Christmas present and so was the Indian dinner after that too. She is such a strong and capable lady, Aunty Kim. The last time we saw her was last week when she moved into her new place from the nursing quarters up in Randwick (still close to the hospital where she works as a nurse) and since then, she bought a new tv and some pillows and put up some pictures. Her home is so simple, and vintage (my brothers' words). She wanted to do interior design if she hadn't gotten herself stuck in nursing and had kids!

I thought the Narnia movie was amazing...so, perhaps good but not great, as Mr. Winoto said. I just love the battlescenes from most of the movies that have been out. The magnificent cinematography coupled with the awesome soundtrack and just blows my mind away. And I could sense how C.S. Lewis had incorporated the story of God's saving grace into the story.

Can you imagine how the White witch thought that Aslan was doing the most stupid thing ever? As in how Satan must have thought Jesus was doing likewise when he chose to die in the mercy of his hands? How dumb can he be? Not only does God makes silly people like us who keep on disobeying him but Jesus does the ultimate silly thing! But wait.....it wasn't stupid! What Satan didn't know was that Jesus would conquer death like how Aslan did in the movie!

Anyway, here is what I did during Christmas eve ...had dinner with my family in sydney:

Brian (my cousin, Tsushan's husband) is giving me a look for taking a pic of him....haha...he's such a funny bloke to bag out and he does it to me too! We were at Aunty Yen's parents-in-law's place. Aunty Kim came too , so did my brothers.

My little cousin, Jessica and me :)