On march 1st 2 years ago, i started working at my current company - can't believe it's been 2 years!!
A few things I've been thinking about recently about work. One, when something goes wrong, and i feel like blaming someone, it really was not their fault. For example, I had to send out this parcel to NZ for a workmate going over there to do a presentation with a big important client and DHL assured us that it should leave on Thurs and arrive by Friday and since it's dangerous, because of customs, possibly next week. But then...i kept tracking it online...and it still hadn't left on Thursday OR over the weekend!! and my workmate needed it by Monday. So come Monday, I rang DHL to find out what was the problem and i really tried to be polite, but at the same time...i'm like...WHY hasn't it left Sydney yet???? what do u mean it hasn't left??? I NEED IT IN NZ TODAY!!! Okay i didn't raise my voice or speak fast, but I think i did sound a bit let down. In my head , I'm like "stupid DHL" or stupid Australian customs. And then as I thought about the reasons DHL gave for the hold up : packaging issues...and talked to my other colleague about it, it was I THINK coz we used a recycled box to package the parcel instead of a new box. And this problem has happened a few times before and we still hadn't learned from our mistake... So in other words...the fault is really ours. Judging others before I even look at my own faults.
Secondly, I was kinda worried over this. I worried for how my friend was going to cope in NZ without the parcel. I thought about it on the weekend and after i found out on Monday from DHL that it was still in Sydney, I called him while he was in NZ to explain the "sad" situation. But u know, it all turned out okay for him. He had brought a spare set of food powder mixes with him (he was just afraid the strict NZ customs wouldn't let him thru with them) and so, he just couldn't have one flavour for a dessert and so, he had to just use something else. I was kinda relieved...and thought, why do i worry about things like this? Really...i should just have enjoyed the days that passed -i couldn't do anything about it anyway! and worrying was just taking up brain cells. Anyway it was just a food presentation...who cares?! The company would just lose a bit of face & not get the sales they want if things didn't turn out well but it wasn't life-threatening. Just that very weekend i spent my time worrying (on and off), i found out a friend who was in a nearly life-threatening situation and it just made me think again about important things in life.
Thirdly, before this, there was something else that made me a bit mad at someone at work because I felt I was being chased and blamed when to me, it was a collective blame. And i could just feel my manner towards her starting not to be very accommodating to her questions for indirect responsiblity of something important. It's not my first time being a bit frustrated and i'm not the only one from comments I've heard. But see...I'm making comments. So I'm going to STOP right now...And then after overhearing a conversation about her, I realised how difficult it must be for her here - an expat, single mum, how loneliness can kick in, fitting in etc..How I can so easily forget that she's human, and to treat her graciously. And how about looking at my own self?? Anyway...whatever that problem was,it turned out okay in the end too.
And whatever I said in earlier posts about the job not being demanding and not stressful, i take it back somewhat. There was another incident quite early on this year that made me nearly cry and really think of a career change but that turned out okay in the end.
It sounds like I hate my job somewhat or my working environment but that's not true. I really like my workmates and working as a team especially in my lab team (btw, we don't call ourselves that)- think i'm just learning even more what working in a team is like and developing effective communication even on a personal level. One of my workmates is going over to S'pore for 2 months for training on Monday - seems so long!! Felt a bit sad today but there's email and a phone call costs nothing since it runs over the internet. I even like my company - sense of loyalty somewhat.
anyway, other than work, and among other things, my cousin, Marcus is around for the weekend which is nice and Kailing, my good friend, is coming to Sydney for close to 3 weeks for a holiday.
Happy weekend everyone :)
