Goodbye

When I walk into the old familiar place,
I see emptiness
why is it so bare?
But memories I see
Memories I hear
The walls speak out to me as I walk past
Perhaps he is watching a movie on his computer
or sleeping his tiredness away.

My room is empty
How can I not sleep there again?
Goodbye you, and you and you
To the laundry room downstairs as well
How can I not come here again?
or open the mailbox again?
or get off the bus at the same place?

I'm sorry I didn't take care of you properly

Goodbye...i'll miss u.

Do Not Worry

Just been reading these verses. They're one of my favourite passages.

Matthew 6:25-34

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

almost goodbye

ok, i'm moving tomorrow!! but i don't have to officially hand over my keys till saturday....but I have to pack almost everything by early tomorrow morning. I'll spend the rest of the days till Saturday doing cleaning when I can...

...and that's the plan!

sounds organised but it's an illusion....really.

Random thoughts for the day

Everyone, don't eat those cheap "sausage" rolls and meat pies again. They are really crap. My workmate was making the filling up (just mixing different powdered ingredients and stuff) and I don't even see any form of meat in the recipe. Anyway, just looking at what I make up everyday, i see the stuff i put into any food product and seriously, the amount of sugar, or salt or other phosphates, and acids i put in and other stuff u put in to stabilise the food amongst the normal flour, spices and herbs. All the sweet products we make up like cake mixes have just over 50% sugar, i swear. We could just die of diabetes. I guess the cakes and sweet stuff we bake at home have a lot of sugar too....it just didn't seem taht obvious to me then.

Fake and unhealthy. Being a food technologist in that kinda food line, I feel it's kinda ..."unpurposeful".

anyway, i shouldn't be saying this coz eating a little bit of processed food here and there hasn't killed most of us, huh. People are still alive! Processed food has helped feed a lot of people in varied situations. What would u do without them? You'd have to make fresh pasta and how are u going to get your baked beans? or cereal, tomato pastes, cheese etc But since my brothers have left, I'm trying to finish most of my processed food. I'm not going to buy much of these anymore. Recently, I've only been buying fresh fruits and vegetables to eat. They're so much cheaper and healthier. I don't intend on buying any more meat to cook and eat unless i have to do it for someone else or unless i go out to eat. Well, maybe canned tuna, maybe. I just don't care to buy meat anymore now that my brothers aren't here.

I'm not really a health freak but i see the importance of eating healthier stuff. Not that i'm going to buy expensive organic healthy stuff from the supermarket. I'm still a cheapo but not so cheapo to buy really crappy stuff. I still can eat a lot of processed crap, i don't mind but for now, i'm going to be a rabbit and eat sliced carrots, lettuce and cucumber for lunch.

Ok, not always :P

hahah my mum is funny....

"Funny thing is I do feel a very small part of my life [ie, that part when I spent a short stay at the apartment] has been whizzed away by the couple who bought your stuff [especially the fridge - I was 'interacting' with it for whole 2 weeks]. "

i didn't feel as sentimental as her, but like her, i did like the fridge. But glad the burden of carrying those heavy stuff has been taken of me!

Home alone

Before anyone thinks i'm all lonely and stuff...I'm okay :)

My brothers left a couple of days ago and surprisingly, I didn't feel as crap as I thought I would be. I think coz this is the 2nd time they've left me by myself and I had PR stuff to sort out with my aunt right after they left and i've got all our junk to move out and other things in my mind. I'm definitely moving out...gotta get out here in about 2 weeks. I'm not sure where I'm moving yet...my mum was like..what?? hahha

Someone is coming tomorrow to buy some of our big furniture like my brothers' beds, sofa, study table etc ...and my fridge...oh, my big fridge. Oh well, at least i won't have to figure out a way to carry it down later on. So, I'll have to try to finish up all the food that needs to be refrigerated or do something with it.

My brothers helped me a lot especially to pack stuff in boxes. It's my fault we didn't move earlier. But it's okay....everything will be taken care of! My room is in a total mess, like a typhoon.

I cleaned up my brothers' room yesterday and tried to make the stuff we wanted to sell look presentable..They don't have much stuff unlike me....i like to hoard, can't bear to throw out some stuff but some will have to go..

Anyway , back to more cleaning and packing...